I feel rather sad that I still haven't written about my recent experiences... I just haven't had the heart yet... and I would just make notes or write a little summary... but I abhor summaries and I can't bring myself to type words that don't ring true; I only write lies for school.
I'm awful at time management.
People say to manage your time wisely... I find the concept terribly depressing... I'm typically on a stringent schedule, and I've developed a sleep deficit lately... so when I get free time, I don't know what to do with myself.
I really need to call Tech tomorrow and figure out my housing. I'm going to do it right after school tomorrow.
I should have done that silly maroon and grey scholarship today... and worked on that ridiculous essay for Mrs. Falls... studied for UIL this Wednesday... for my hero test on Tuesday...
I can always say that I should have done a lot of things. I wonder if retired people are actually caught up on everything or if they just let it all go and forget about it. I wonder why humans set up their lives so that they stress out like crazy in their youth and then spend their later years not knowing what to do with themselves.
I made vegetarian baked ziti today. It was delicious. Mom really liked it, and that made me very happy; she said she had expected it to be good, but that she was actually really impressed. I'll make some when you come home, sister; I think you'll like it.
I also read Zorro a little and slept a lot...
I suppose I could have written about my experiences today... but I didn't feel I could make the words ring, and when it comes to matters of extreme truth, I think it's very important that they ring. In fact, there's a story behind what I'm talking about.
I guess I will make notes, just so that I don't forget what the stories are.
1) The Conversation between Des and I about the Bells
2) What the Magician Told me on Stage Wednesday
3) What we Did at OAP Practice the Night before District
4) My Good Show Gifts so Far
Hm... I don't know really... I have quotes in my notebooklet that should bring the memories back. Hopefully I won't forget. I'll just have to do a blog based on events in my notebooklet, really. Hopefully I'll do that soon. I have some good stuff to share.
leedle... your life feels magical... like some people give off a very stressed vibe, or angry, sad, fake, etc but yours is magical hopeful and kind of self degrading. dont be so hard on yourself. you are wonderful and i love you very much.
ReplyDeleteone day i promise to go back and comment on all your posts but until i will continue to selfishly indulge in your words.
leedle... you will doodle finage and this summer bells together we will learn to manage our time like laura buns and wake with the sun!
Thank you, sister. I appreciate this very, very much. Your comment has greatly improved my spirits.
ReplyDeleteI apologize that this post was so melancholy...
You don't have to do that, sister; it is wonderful that you read them. Commenting isn't absolutely necessary. My words were written with their arms open and reaching, awaiting another set of eyes to take them into the mind behind them on another journey. I think they go to you very happily, comments or no comments.
Sister, I would love to learn to wake with the sun with you.
Thank you, very very much.
LOVE